And you're raging head can finally rest.

Pop goes my heart.

When I was young, boys were nice to me so I would share my candy with them.
Eventually, boys flattered me in order to get answers from my homework.
Now, they sweet-talk me in order to get shows.
Soon enough, they'll beg me not to kill them. 


Yes, I said it. I will kill you.

Adventures In Chicago

After finally waking Amanda, picking up Kara, and mapquesting the entire state, the three of us sped our way down 65 North to the fine city of Bolingbrook to utilize our Ikea gift cards. After purchasing several light fixtures, a canopy, towels, and sparkling pear juice, we finally made it to Milwaukee St. in order to visit several thrift stores and American Apparel. My extreme thrifting skillz led me straight to a pair of tan cowboy boots that I've been dreaming about since I was a young girl. We then proceeded to sit in traffic for about an hour trying to get to Elmhurst. Getting through the throngs of drunk Cubs fans was a hassle, but an adventure all the same. We finally got to the Holiday Inn and got to see our bestie Melly after a long wait of three. whole. days. Currently, we are drinking our sparkling pear juice and partying it up.

Wait,

what are my priorities?

Destiny.

Why does it seem like the wrong people always wander back into my life at the worst possible times?

"There are stains on these sheets...and hairs."

In a fit of ghost-hunting, adventure-seeking excitement, Amanda, Kaela, Kara, and I ventured to St. Louis and the historical Lemp Mansion. First, we visited the arch, and then we toured the beer factory. I learned much more about beer than I ever thought I could. Get this- Budweiser beer is the only brand bottled with a 'born-on' date. Shortly thereafter, we went to the Shakespeare festival, where fire-eaters and various other performers entertained us in Shakespearian-era clothing, except for the cargo shorts. Then we saw the actors perform King Richard the IV. It was sad and crazy. And difficult to understand who was in what family because some actors were...ethnic. We traversed back to the Lemp Mansion (where the famous brewery mogul William Lemp and his family had lived and committed suicide) to sleep soundly in the personal quarters of Charles Lemp and his wife. Charles shot himself in the room and his wife died of cancer. We explored the house but failed to see any signs of ghosts of the family. 






I'm in a funny mood today.

Walking through these spiderwebs.

I thought I would love being out of school, but now I only feel unproductive.
All the time I just think about all the things I want to do, but instead I just hang out. 
I'm wasting away my life on myspace.

Crystal Ball

I think I'll be pulling teeth for the rest of my life in order to get things to work out.

July 6th, 2008

The endless queue of meaningless actvities is wearing. me. down. I'm tired of wandering through my life with no purpose or sense of direction. I want to make a difference in something, anything. And I want to be important to someone. I don't want to to continue my childish, unsatisfying existence while everything around me needs to change. 

So please take my life and use it. I'm ready.