thanksgiving eve

I'm excited for tomorrow. I'm wondering how dinner with my mother is going to work out.. I'm awfully tired, but I want to stay up and watch My Fair Lady. I need to sleep though. And I'm officially going to see Manchester Orchestra and Kevin Devine on Sunday. 

reflection

I've recently picked up the habit of sitting outside at night and reflecting on my day and such. I specifically think of what I'm thankful for and things I've done well today. I saw someone's Christmas Tree and it was nice. I also thought about how lucky I am that I'm getting an education. So many of my friends have dropped out of school or just don't think college is right for them. I understand this, but I know God has given me a gift and I need to use my brain for more than just high school. I know no matter what I choose, whether it will be music or education or journalism or whatever, I'll be able to be actually educated in my field. And I'll be successful. There are so many people that can't get an education, and I'm very grateful for it.

why did i watch so many movies this weekend?

I got to see Wall-e the other night. It was amazing. I also got to see Twilight with Brad, Peter, and Kaela. I loved it of course, but it wasn't that great. It was just cool to see some parts of the story acted out and everything. Last night Ryan was kind enough to take me to the symphony. It was really neat, as usual. It made me want to get things done. Then we watched Hot Fuzz. It was a crazy movie. Today I went to the IUPUI fine arts & crafts fair. I think there were less than 10 people my age. Everyone else was, like, a hundred. Then Kara, Melissa, and I went to the My Hidden Track show. Yeah, the show was lame and all, but I missed those two so much, so I didn't even care. Then I went to Kara's and we watched Tropic Thunder. I have to say, that is the most ridiculous movie I have ever seen, aside from Kung Pow. Now I've been cleaning and doing laundry for awhile and I'm ready for some sleeps.

I wrote something about you and took it out. I mean, damn, it's been a year and a half. I would just like to know if you ever wonder how I'm doing.

introversion

Really, I just want to take Heidi [before the statue version] to live on the east coast in a small apartment with my computer and various instruments and only leave for cupcake mix and library books. The world is a beautiful place, but sometimes I can't handle the cruel, judgmental people in it. 

walking two steps forward

Playing for BSU Late Night was fun. I couldn't really hear myself or bradley because they didn't have any monitors, so we'll see how it was once the video is on the Internet. My day at Columbia was very interesting. After waking up at five, Melissa and I drove to Chicago. We figured out where we needed to be and went to the opening session. It started with a girl shaking a bag of carrots, which she then distorted and added guitar. Eventually it turned into a bunch of musicians from the school playing this crazy song and all these dancers and everything. It was really neat. I started to cry for some reason. Only  a little bit though. I'm too emotional. So then we went outside in the real real cold and looked at my building. I got to see some of the work rooms and equipment and such. I was like, the only girl in the program. lolz. Then some guy ran up to us in the car and was all "Are you girls here for the open house?" And when we said yes he was like "You girls are so beautiful" and skipped away. Then we went shopping, got lost, went to portillo's, and came home. Then yesterday Amanda, Kara, and I went to Louisville. We saw Memaw and Aunt Cindy. They were the most lady like Southern Belles I have ever met. Then we went to the show at the Bulldog Cafe. For some reason this drunk girl from my journalism class was there making out with this guy from FIAD. It was quite hilarious. Now I'm in the campus center with Metal Bryan, waiting for my mentor meeting. 

On a side not, my father texts me all the time but the only things he says are "whatup" or "rusafe" or "foodintrunk." lololol

while you lay there in slumber

I'm real excited for this weekend. Caitlin Dashney is staying with us. I won't get to see her much because of class and such, but seeing her face just brightens my day. Tomorrow we are being taped for BSU late night. I'm playing violin, so it should be real fun. Then I'm going to Alex's play Friday. Then I'm going to Chicago for a college day at Columbia on Saturday. THEN I'm going to Louisville for a show on Sunday. I'm never going to sleep. Next semester I'm choosing to go against my advisor's advising and take music theory II instead of French. This is my first step towards ruining and taking control of my life!

Tonight was no good. At all. 

Tonight was Julie's birthday party.  I was very glad I got to see all of them again. We even played dance dance revolution. And I was awesome at it. 

Talking to tulo and shawn about how prudish I am just confirms how important it is to me to meet someone who cherishes me enough not to push me to do things I don't want to. 

I'm probably going to sabotage myself into nonexistence.

for real

I woke up late today and missed my first class. I wanted to cry. But at least I'm in the campus center now with metal bryan drinking an iced chai tea latte. And he says he might be able to get me a job at one of the computer labs. If not I'll have to go back to coldstone. This is the first Thursday in a very long time I haven't spent with Brad, Peter, and Kaela. It's very weird.

Why is it that people think you're uneducated if you're Christian? It's like, if you don't believe it's possible that everything- the sky, the ground, intelligence, the human brain, dna and rna, love, plants, proteins, water, lightning, technology, nature, everything- came from ABSOLUTELY nothing you're completely ignorant. There are plenty of flaws and contradictions in their theories too, but it's like you can't bring it up if you want to be respected at all. I just want everyone to get along mannnn.

birds were singing to calm us down

This weekend was intense. I was with dylan, kaela, brad, and peter pretty much the whole time. We played music and watched movies and ate popcicles and had all kinds of fun. I didn't do much homework, but i'll get to that eventually I suppose. I played a lot of guitar and talked to some random sri lankan guy on skype. He keeps sending me broken heart smileys. Here is our conversation, it's pretty funny:

kalum.de.silva: 20:42:36

hi.................

Chelsea English: 22:26:38

hi

kalum.de.silva: 22:28:57

HOWA

kalum.de.silva: 22:29:17

HOW ARE YOU? (F)

Chelsea English: 22:29:22

i'm gooood

Chelsea English: 22:29:27

just playing guitar

Chelsea English: 22:29:28

you?

kalum.de.silva: 22:31:19

YES. I LIKE

kalum.de.silva: 22:33:55

SEE THAT YOURVPHOTO

kalum.de.silva: 22:34:24

SEE THAT YOUR PHOTO

kalum.de.silva: 22:34:54

:)

Chelsea English: 22:35:08

haha thank you

kalum.de.silva: 22:38:20

WHAT ARE YOU DOING NOW?

Chelsea English: 22:39:21

what are you sending me?

kalum.de.silva: 22:39:44

JOK

kalum.de.silva: 22:40:10

MY PHOTO

Chelsea English: 22:40:25

hahah i see it

kalum.de.silva: 22:40:49

OKKKKKKKKKKKKK

Chelsea English: 22:41:56

where are you from?

kalum.de.silva: 22:42:02

YOU DONT HAVE

Chelsea English: 22:42:46

?

kalum.de.silva: 22:43:36

SRI LANKA &GERMANI

kalum.de.silva: 22:44:11

GET MY PHOTO

Chelsea English: 22:44:40

why?

Chelsea English: 22:44:59

do you speak german?

Chelsea English: 22:45:11

ich liebe deutcshland

kalum.de.silva: 22:45:16

YOU DONT LIKE ME

Chelsea English: 22:45:45

i don't know you!

kalum.de.silva: 22:46:02

OK

kalum.de.silva: 22:46:25

YOU WONT ME

Chelsea English: 22:46:38

i cant get a virus!

kalum.de.silva: 22:46:44

(handshake)(F)(h)(F)(handshake):*

Chelsea English: 22:46:59

ich mag dir

Chelsea English: 22:47:03

ahha

kalum.de.silva: 22:48:34

I AM DISEBELE SOLDER. AIR FORCE

kalum.de.silva: 22:49:29

GUN SHOT ENJERI

kalum.de.silva: 22:51:44

PLS UNDERSTAND ME

kalum.de.silva: 22:52:14

(sweat)

Chelsea English: 22:52:36

i i understand you

kalum.de.silva: 22:53:59

I WONT GOOD FRIND

Chelsea English: 22:54:26

you won't understand me?

kalum.de.silva: 22:54:45

YES

Chelsea English: 22:56:05

why?

Chelsea English: 22:56:36

sprechen sie deutsch?

kalum.de.silva: 22:57:07

DONT MIND

Chelsea English: 22:57:23

dont mind what?

kalum.de.silva: 22:58:03

ARE YOU MY FRIND

Chelsea English: 22:58:22

of course

kalum.de.silva: 22:59:02

OK THANK.............HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY (F)

Chelsea English: 22:59:13

you're welcome

kalum.de.silva: 23:00:03

YOU WONT MY PHOTO

Chelsea English: 23:00:22

i i got it! i like your photo

kalum.de.silva: 23:01:39

I WONT YOU , YOR FAMILY PHOTO

Chelsea English: 23:01:56

i don't have one

kalum.de.silva: 23:02:40

ARE YOU MARRID

Chelsea English: 23:05:50

no

Chelsea English: 23:05:53

i have a boyfriend

kalum.de.silva: 23:06:31

GOODDDDDDDDD

kalum.de.silva: 23:07:22

SEX WITH GOOD

Chelsea English: 23:07:52

i don't know what you mean...