into a thick mist of change

My hair is red again.

This weekend, Amanda, Kaela, and I went to Chicago. We got up way too early and saw some girl get run over by a bike. My worst fear. Tulo and Shawn stayed again last night. I really do have loads of fun when they come over. We watched Sex and the City. I had to find a book in the library and it was checked out. Lame. Tonight Brad and Peter surprised us and we all went to Olive Garden. My weekends seem to have a certain schedule with these particular friends, and I don't hate it. I have been skipping class a lot. I should stop. I can't wait until the office on thursday. And I love the fact that I've had time to play all my different instruments this week. Really. I'm in a good mood.

case of the sundays.

Thursday night, Kaela, Veronica, and I went to Muncie. We climbed trees and ate brownies with Peter and Brad. We made Brad sleep on the floor so Veronica and I could have a bed. Then Tulo And Shawn came Friday night. We drove all the way to Castleton and never found Old Navy. I love when they visit, except when they don't put their blankets away. And as for last night, I would rather forget the whole thing. I learned my lesson. Now I have about a million things to do and a million exciting things throughout the week.

and i feel like a fool.

At ten o clock Tuesday night, Kara, Amanda, and I got the awesome idea to go to Michigan. So we did. It was a bad decision, but an adventure none the less. Brad, Peter, and Bryan came to stay last night. It was pretty awesome, as usual. They're always able to make me laugh, no matter how upset I am. Tonight I've been doing all kinds of homework. And I still need to do laundry. 

And I guess it doesn't matter what I am or pretend to be,
Cause it's her you'll always love, and it's her I'll always envy.

the oats we sow

This weekend has been eventful. A Kidnap In Color stayed with us over the weekend. They were crazy and fun, but they took all the red bull. And we got to see Farewell Flight at the ROCC warehouse. I always love them because of the light show. And them in general. Then I went to Anderson for a little bit to hang out with Shawn and Tulo. It was awfully dark, rainy, and scary in that city. Then I had to go to funcie muncie and ended up staying because of the bad weather. And the bedtime stories. After getting Peter to carry me through the lave back to my car, I drove home and went to class. Now I'm going to Kara's to have a good old time.

From the day that we met.

So Kaela and I went to Muncie Thursday night. First we went to the show at the Launching Pad. Which ended up being a pretty sweet deal.  Then we stayed with Brad and Peter. We had lots of fun. We climbed this huge tree, and ghosts followed us around. Luckily, Peter was nice enough to tuck us in a million times and tell us a bedtime story. But! When we went back to find my car, it was gone. It got towed! And the people left my window down overnight while it rained. So I had to give the establishment ninety-five dollars. I'm eventually going to take the man down.

a few of my favorite things:

-talking about god.

-driving with my windows down and listening to the archers bows have broken and hide and seek.

-fall weather.

-worrying about my wisdom teeth now.

-vid chatting with peter and brad.

-watching law and order.

-getting an a on my math test.

-calling peter a bro.

I think

I just don't even want you in my life anymore.

This is me being a girl.

nevermind!

I got soul, but I'm not a soldier

This week has been hectic. I have been all over the state. Thursday, Amanda, Kaela, and I went to Bloomington and hung out with Skot and his crazy friends. It was really fun staying up all night and becoming best friends with him. Friday, I had my piano lesson. Then Nathan, Kristen, Colleen, Kaela, and I went to First Friday. I always feel like people are judging me there. Saturday, Tulo and Shawn came over and watched all of season four of The Office. I was real upset at the end that Jim didn't propose to Pam. I even went home today and helped Dad cut the grass, since everyone else in my family has hurt their back. I got to take a nap there too. Now Amanda and I are going to clean my room since it is practically a hot tranny mess. 

I don't think I can allow myself to be important to someone. Although I welcome and appreciate help from my friends, being seen as more than that almost makes me uncomfortable. I want more than anything for this to be false, but it's too engrained in my nature to shy away from the attention. And it doesn't help that often when I become accustomed to and dependent on this kind of attention, it leaves just as fast as it came. I just need someone to prove me wrong. 

lists

Things I need to do today:

Write my ad analysis

Take a new myspace default [priority number one, obvz]

Finish my Finite quiz

Stop burning bridges

Stop being dumb

Practice my various musical instruments

Vacuum [pft]

Things I need to buy with my student loan:

Printer paper

Capo

New camera

Cell phone that has a working space bar button

Jetta

Ferret

Ferret supplies

Firearms

Machine that makes vampire babies 

Last night, Kaela and I went to bloomington to visit Skot. He's always so nice, and I missed him a lot! We even got to go to our old stomping grounds, Cascades Park. It was weird being back in Bloomington and not trying to get ahold of him. I'm going home for dinner tonight and I'm quite excited.